Marina

Fri, 04 Jul 2003 14:37:23 GMT

anyone know a good place to watch the fire works?????

found another pic of ray from prom

Wed, 11 Jun 2003 15:52:39 GMT

More pics from prom

Sat, 31 May 2003 15:04:25 GMT

Me+Ray. i hate this pic of me, but o well.

Aida and date vince. Not a great pic as well.

Lance, kid aida hooked up w/ a while ago.

Jess's dad's ferarri. hotttt.

Thu, 29 May 2003 23:55:54 GMT

i have a new journal. Add me. _deadxend_. yup. thats all for now. i dont think i'm gonna write much in here anymore...well if i do, it'll be friends only.

Some pics from prom...i'll post more up later. (Rays here now)

Tue, 27 May 2003 22:30:38 GMT

me..about to say something i think?

crazy looking pic of me

Ray

BFF aida

Mon, 19 May 2003 20:21:50 GMT

well i haven't updated in quite a while, so i decided to do so now..(considering there's nothing else to do b4 babysitting.)..But yea...not too much is new. The seniors last day was friday. There's barely any school left. I got on honor roll. My parents are very happy. The weather has gone back to beautiful. This weekend is prom. I bought my dress and shoes already. Found out evil ms. mack isnt coming back next year. made my day. Oh and i have an A-/A average in precalc. go mee. Anyway. my mommy is taking me out to eat so i'll have to finish updating later. 12 days of school left. wooohoo.

Mon, 19 May 2003 00:22:42 GMT

13 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT

Mon, 28 Apr 2003 01:00:43 GMT

pic taken shortly after i woke up. i know u love my wonderful bed head..

..that is if the pic actually showed up..and if it did..I LOVE Picturetrail.com!! openshoebox SUCKS. everyone should use picturetrail.com. haha.

Fri, 18 Apr 2003 23:19:04 GMT

ahhh cant get this out of my head. cant get ray out of my head.

"Well I can hardly wait
Until I get the sun and your lips both
pressing on my skin
Well I can hardly wait
Until I feel that thrill in my heart that starts inside your eyes
And the song in my head that burns so good on my tongue"

not a worry in the world..

Tue, 15 Apr 2003 19:12:44 GMT

so i'm looking out the window and the weather is beautiful. it hasnt been like this for a while now and its putting me in a good mood. This is the 4th day of spring break so far and its been pretty relaxing. Saturday i hung out w/ ray for the first time since he's been back from FL. We went to a basbeball game (my first one), and the weather was so nice. The wind was warm and carried a scent of the ocean for some odd reason. But it was great. After the game we went back to rays house and relaxed there for a couple hours. I got to take some great pictures of him which i will hopefully get to post up later..(when he sends me them.) Then the rest of the night was enjoyable as well. We met up with Lance and Tanya and played mini golf. It was my first time playing and i was horrible, but ray and lance didnt seem to mind. Ray, though, at one point hit his ball so hard and it flew into the stream coming from the waterfall far behind us. It almost hit this couple but luckily they werent mad and just laughed, and I felt better about my golfing skills.haha. After mini golf we got some mcdonalds and sped to the mall where my dad was waiting to pick me up. Leaving always sucks but o well. It was a nice night.

i'm going to finish updating later though and go enjoy this amazing weather. Hope everyone has a good day.

Sun, 06 Apr 2003 16:38:01 GMT

so right now ray is on a plane to florida. ::tear::. last night was fun. He picked me up from the mall and we went to chilis. We got there early so we hung out in his car for a little bit. Then matt held slams on the window and REALLy freaks me out.Ray chases him and i just get out of the car and walk to the front. Danielle and Will are there. We were originally supposed to just meet up with will and sara, but that turned out to be will sara danielle matt sharon sagie and sagie's friend..ellory?...yea...the hostess in chilis was being an asss and made us wait like an hour. But then we finally got seated. i ordered chicken quesidilla (sp?) and my strawberry daquiri. yumm. haven't gone to chilis in a long time. I think i'm gonan go more often now. But anyway...after chilis we all went bowling @ Finigans. Since it was after 10 it was the cosmic bowling thing. so cool. haven't gone 2 anything like that around here. My team was me ray matt and sagie..we beat lance will sara and elroy the first game. Me and ray got the same score. then the second game we lost =/. o well. it was funn. O and if forgot to add, on the way to bowling there was a lot of creepy roads surrounded by woods and no lamp posts, plus to make it worse, all the fog. It was scary. And ray being himself, stops his car there and turns off the headlights and opens his door. I get really scarreddd. It doesnt sound scary but it definitely was. O yea, and then there was a graveyard around the corner which he drove into, of course. Yea it was realllyyy creepy. But its kind of a rush in a weird way. But anyway...after bowling we had a little less than an hour so we hung out in his car...
friday: watched rays baseball practice which was playing basketball. Mr. C. is weird. But yea..then went to Mcdonalds and then to Wendys to meet up w/ lance and will. then back to ray's house, then went to the movies and saw telephone booth..i think it was called..it was goood..And ray's sooo sweeettt, i was cold and since there was no parking spots we had to park real far. As we were leaving the movie i was thinking how much i am dreading to walk that far, and ray goes "wait here, i'll get get the car"..i i didnt even say anything. idk i thought it was so sweett.
o and i didnt update for last friday, no wait, i think it was the friday before that...o well..but anyway, we went to roxannes sweet 16. Then matt held's after party. Matt and aida hooked up. Steve was hitting on anna. Ernest threw up all over matt's bathroom. I think me, ray, anna, and chip were the only ones not messed up. Then aida had to leave early because her damn parents said she couldn't sleep over matt's and had to stay at roxannes. So the girls left since they were all staying there also. I stayed with ray and got to spend the night with him =D-and like the whole baseball team..lol, no but it was fun..they eventually all fell asleep. well except for jon whalen who was just sitting by himself until 6am and then left to roxanne's house. And matt who was talking most of the night. But it was still soo nice to be with ray so long. Anyone else i prob wud have gotten sick of for that long, but with ray, its impossible. We've been going out for 5months today, and its only been getting better. Its insane. I <3 U RAY. oooo and by the way
aida got a DOG!! A cockerspanial however u spell that. wooo. But anyway..i'll end this entry since its getting SOOOo long..and i shud be heading over to aidas already. o One more thing-5 days til SPRING BREAK. WOOOOOOOOOOOOooo!!! and IM ALLOWED TO DRIVE AGAIN!!!!!
i'm GONNA COME SEE YOU LAUREN!! and of course u 2 RAy.

Tue, 01 Apr 2003 21:09:42 GMT

fucking 2 hour detention

ray is my hero!!

Sun, 16 Mar 2003 21:43:54 GMT

Saturday. Hot import nights (car show). Phili. So amazing. Went with ray, ray's friend matt, and matt's 3 friends. 2 different cars. Got there an hour late. HUGE line. it RApped around the building 2 or 3 times. 2 hour wait atleast. Ray is in a short sleeve shirt. We're cold. Not to mention hungry. The car w/ matt's 3 friends haven't even parked. We're going at a rate of 5 steps a minute. Theres like 99998989867676799978883732 steps to go. I think of ways we can cut the line. none of which are realistic. Well besides paying someone to let us cut them. Then they're handing out free Audiobahn tang tops to the girls waiting. I get one. woo. but dont know what to do with it. Matt jokes and says ray should put it on. So he does. He looks real funny. People are giving him weird looks. Then the guys giving out the shirts walk by. See ray wearing it. Laugh. Take pictures for the website. And then ask how many people we came with. Some people infront of us go "hey i'm w/ them!!!" ..At this point i'm thinking..wooahh maybe they'l let us cut the line!! so i get excited. We say 6. But Matt went to find his friends. Who still haven't gotten there. So its just me and ray standing there. The guy hesitates or is thinking. Then pulls out 2 pink bracelets and says soemthing. I dont really listen 2 what he says because i'm WAy too excited and amazed at that poitn. Matt comes a second later and we're like "we got vip bracelets! we get to cut the line!" But matts the one thats idea was all this so we begged the guy for one more, and said matt was the driver..even tho ray drove us there. Matt did drive us back though. Anyway. We get one more bracelet. Matt's friends come and they dont get any. O well. haha. They take our place in line..while we get to cut the wholllle place..And i'm all excited. But it turns out better than i thought it was. I thought the vip bracelets were just to cut the line..but still have to pay the $25, (which i was more than happy for)..but turns out..Not Only do we get to cut the line, but we GET TO GO IN FOR FREE!! So now i have $25 to spend on whatever i want in there, and get food..since i cudn't before because thats all the money i had. It was sOOOOO GREAt. We went up the escalator, and the guy was taking more pics of ray. We were still amazed from what just happened..ray getting us in for free, JUSt by wearing a girl's audiobahn shirt. It was nuts. Then we get into the room, and since this was my first car show, i was even More AMAZED. The room was HUGE, with ttonns of GORgOUEs amazing cars. I've never seen anything like it. And there were girl car models eevrywhere. There was also a photo shoot, a club part, and stands eevrywhere giving away free stuff. I got a free key chain, free magazines, and a free wax spray thing to clean the car with and some other bottles. I got a poster signed by a model for my dad. Its real funny, because the poster is of this like half naked girl, and it says "lennie- Sorry you missed out on all the fun"-love__. I wish i taped my dads face wen i gave it to him. Since he's so conservative and serious. It was funny giving it to him. OOO and also..that same model...haha..saw ray and was like "nice shirt. U shud stuff it" so ray told her he didnt have anything to stuff it wtih. and shes like. No u gotta stuff it. I'll help u out. So while the whole line of guys waited at her stand for her autograph..she was taking paper and scrunching it up and stuffing it in Ray's shirt. It was soo funny. And plus how many people can say "a model went up my shirt.." even less "a model stuffed my shirt" It was so funny. I'll try 2 find a pic of her and put it on later..oo and i want to put a pic of the shirt i got up also. I love it. lol...but anyway..after walking around a couple hours..and looking at the AMAZing cars. Which by the way were InSANE. These people put flat screen tvs in their TRUNKs. It was crazy. Ooo and there was this car, that you could write on with chalk and just whipe the chalk right off. It was weiiirdd. I never saw anything like it. It was like a whole new world. haha. So many firsts that day. like BLUe soda. Never had or heard of it before. But it was sooo goood. And it was the first time i was out of state w/ ray. lol.
Anyway..by the time Matt's friends got in..we were already done looking at everything and leaving. It was soo funny. They were giving us these dirty looks..definently because they were soo jealous. It was great..And after we left it was just as good. We dropped Matt off at where this kid Garry works and then it was just me and ray. I told my parents i was going 2 be back at 1:30..and it was only like 11 wen we got back 2 nj. So i had lots of time. And since me and ray were tired..or atleast i was tired..we parked in my development and just relaxed. It was soo amazing. And ray is SOoooo amazing. Its unreal.

Sat, 01 Mar 2003 00:49:25 GMT

this has been a weiiiirdddd week.

Tuesday: Went Bowling w/ ray and school. Ray helped me study for my math test. Then went to dinner w/ jennie aida and anna. Accidentally left my bag in the resteraunt.

Wednesday: drove mike aida and of course anna to school. We went out for breakfast and then went to pick up my bag from the resteraunt. I hoped the owner would come early, but he didnt. We waited there until around 9.. then wen we were about to leave, i see him across the parking lot, walking away. Aida and Anna scream "GO GO GO!! HES GETTING AWAY!!!" I back out of the parking space as fast as i can. Then stomp on the gas, except i was so nervous/excited i forget to put the car from reverse to drive..so we go backwards real fast, it was kinda scary. Anyway i speed across the plaza going 40. The owner is getting away. I yell at Anna to open her window. She gets nervous and opens the door-while i'm going 40. Aida and mike scream. And i stomp on the breaks. Then finally anna closes the door and opens her window. I dont know the owners name so i scream the first thing that comes to my mind..which happens 2 be the resteraunt's name. Mike and aida laugh at me, but atleast i get his attention. Finally when he opens the resteraunt and i get my bag, first period in school is halfway through. So we ask the owner the quickest way to get to 9..he gives us some directions, but aida disagrees. She says that he wasn't so sure about the directions, and she knows the way. So we go her way..we drive about 40 min and realize we're completelyyy lost, and should've been in school 10 min ago. But Aida insists that she knows where she's going. So we keep listening to her. 20 min after we pass Belmar, we realize..we dont even recognize the towns anymore. We tell her we're lost and she still says that we're not..that she recognizes the place. if she didnt recognize the place. we wouldn't be going the right way. So we laugh and are like.."ok we believe you that you recognize this place..but that doesn't help if u know where we are...you have to know how to get to school..." and we argue a little..well more like joke..and then we see we're in neptune. aida goes "GUYS!!! WE'RE IN NEPTUNE!! I KNOW WHERE WE ARE!!"..."lol yea aida..so do we...we're in Neptune..ok..but how do we get to school?" "BUT GUYS! I KNOW WHERE WE ARE! I WAS BORN HERE!" "lol but aida..that doesnt help" "TRUST ME. Just keep going"..."but isn't Belmar and neptune past school?? didn't we pass school alreadY?"...and aida goes "No belmar is before school. i know where we are. Just because i'm wearing a white fuzzy thing on my head (the steering wheel cover), doesnt mean i dont know where we are!!" haha. You had to be there, but it was funny...well until the end...until the school called all of our houses and told our parents we werent in school. Our parents think we got into a car accident and my mom thinks we're dead. They're all freaking out. We dont konw this yet though. And we stop at WaWa, where we get directions (good ones-finally), and some food. Then a little while after that when we're at the mcdonalds 5 min from school..Ray calls me and tells me that my mom thinks i'm dead and how could i not ha ve called her and blah blah. And aida's mom calls her cell phone and blah blah. We're like shiiiiit, and rush to school. There we have to go into Mr. C's office and explain where we were becuase all of our teachers think we're cutting, and our parents think we're dead. It was kinda blown out of proportion. No it was definently blown out of proportion. At first they dont believe us that we actually WERE lost, but finally they do. We r stilll in some trouble tho, since i have my restricted license and "broke the law". Well not trouble, but we get a whole longggggg speech. And Mr. C. says i can't drive anyone to school anymore except Anna. Or atleast for a little while. Then he tells us we should've called our parents or the school and told them we were lost and will be there late. Well that would've been a good idea with anyone else's parents..but not mine. If i told my mom i was lost..and especially sincei didnt know how lost. She would've been freaking outttt. she'd try to go find us or do something crazy. Plus the school has NEVER called our houses before wen we were absent or late...so we didnt think they would then. And didnt think our parents would know anyitnhg..or the school would rele think anything...buttt we were wronggg..Anyway...my mom was REALLY happy to hear that we were alive, so when we came home i got in no trouble. She even let ray come over. It was really weird..but then again, we didnt really do anything wrong...So anyway..me and ray went out for lunch/dinner at this pizza place near my house...this one waiter was real obnoxious, and tried to embarass us. He goes "hey are you on a datE? You can go in the back to the nicer room. I can bring you a candle!" and rays like "uh no thats ok"...and so we order pizza and we sit down..i think he's done bothering us but nooo..he comes out from behind the counter and starts asking these gay questions. And goes to ray "is this ur first date?..i know its not herr first date. o wow." as if i go out with so many guys and bring them there all the time...so i go "whats that supposed to mean?" and he says something like "dont act like you dont know " and says he sees me with lots of different guys..and asks what happened with the boy with the blonde spiky hair i came there with a lot.. and i'm like "which one? what does he look like?" "o there's soooo manyy, i dont remember, lol. Something like Justin..." and then asks the other guy that works there what the kids name is..and i'm like "jon? jon cartER? Really tall blonde hair?" and he's like "yea yea himm." but anyway..the point is, even though he was joking about the lot of guys..or atleaset i hope he was joking...Ray doesnt know he's joking so it sounded SOOO baddd..as if i'm this slut or something or player, like i have a different guy every month. It sucked.
So after pizza..me and Ray couldn't figure out what to do. We were thinking of going to rent a movie but my mom wouldn't leave the house and decided it would be too weird. We went to the dead end in my development but couldn't drive in it becuase it was snowed in. So we just drove around a bit. There was this new development being built...the houses were like mansionss..they were soo huge and niccee..We parked outside of one. And ray came up with the idea of going to see if any were open..because obviously no one lives in them and obviously no one is there...so we check the house we're parked infront of but its locked. Even the back door. We go back to the car and drive to another one. But the front door on that one is locked also...i lose all hope for any to be open but then we go arounded to the back..and guess whatt? the back door is open!!! We go in. The house is soooooooo nice and HUge. The masterbathroom is ggorrgouess. There's a pretty big hot tub in it. Its sooo nicceee. We decide to not stay too long. Like 10 min...but we both left our cell phones in the car so i dont know how long we stayed for...but it was cool. At one point the heat or whatever it was goes on and makes this sound and for a second we thought someone was in the house but realize it was only the air conditioning. So then a little after that we go back down into the basement and go outside.. The backyard is covered in ice so we're walking kinda carefully and i am on the last part with ice and am really surprised i didnt fall because my foot caved in before and i thought i was going to fall but i didnt. I look at ray and am about to tell him what skill i have when..of course... I slip. and faLL. Ray laughs and so do i. I dont even realize that i fell on the blanket until a minute later when i stop laughing.. So that sucked..getting the blanket wet i mean. But o well, anyway we go back into his car and drive away from that house.. we stay in the development though, just a different part. I get to spend another hour or so with him, and its great. Especially since i dont usually get to see him that long on a weekday. But then of course, he has to leave as usual. and it sucks.. oooo but before then..haha, this car drives by..realll sloww..it was kinda scary..and just stops right next to us..and i look up and so does ray..it must've looked sooo weird..2 heads coming up and the windows all fogged up. It wasn'tt like that thought. O well. I didnt know the person, but it was freakkkyy. So anyway then we left..Ray dropped me off back home, and left. I went upstairs into my room and changed into my pajamas. I was exausted from such a longg dayyy and am..
about to get into bed when my phone rings..I look who it is and its my x..jon carter..i think it must be important since i haven't talked 2 him in a while...so i pick up to see what he wants. It turns out he's in my development and wants to see me since he hasnt in a while. He waits outside my house for a couple minutes and finally i come out. He's with his friend and they're high. I talk to him for a couple minutes and then go back inside. I lye in bed thinking what a weiiird day its been.

o also i crashed my car into the snow that day. The snow turned out to be ice...hard as a rock. The side is all scratched up and there's a BIG dent. I lost my driving privilages for a couple weeks, but thats about all. My mom wasn't mad or anything, she was tooo happy i was alive to be mad. And i'm not in trouble.

Tue, 25 Feb 2003 22:55:42 GMT

Wooo, "Lucas", Lex's brother on smallville, WENT TO LAKEWOOD PREP!!! AND GRADUATED FROM LAKEWOOD PREP!!! NOT MArlboro, like JESS said. lol. And Ray remembers him..also i'm over jennie's house now..and her sis knew him. But she said that he was obnoxious and thought that he was better than everyone...Ray's friend chris says that he used 2 physically abuse his girlfriend. Ew. But besides that..its soo cooooll, the kid on my favvv show used to go to both my schools..marlboro and lakewood prep.
here's pics of him from the LP yearbook:

Sat, 08 Feb 2003 23:09:43 GMT

last night started off bad but ended up grrreattt. Me and aida hung out w/ ray and lance..and aidas brother half the night. First we were supposed 2 go 2 freehold 2 see the recruit but that didnt work out so me and aida went 2 Court Jester and i guess forgot 2 tell ray and lance we went there because they got 2 aidas house and we werent there..Ray called us and we told them where we were. Then while we were eating i met up w/ my x jon for 5 min. Then I come back and matt, being the ass hole that he is, is telling ray stuff i lied 2 him about. So then ray is mad at me or dissapointed. I feel really bad half the night, (even tho its nothing big). But then we get even because ray throws me into the snow. And i dont just mean throws me, he likes body slams me into the snow. So we come into mikes house all covered in snow at around 11. I feel kind of bad..but o well. Mike was cool about it. So we spend a while there. Me and ray get our own room. woo. and then aidas mom wants 2 pick us up a couple hours later. i think thats the end of the night but then aida tells me no ones home at her house. So I go over aida's house at i think 12 or near there..and her parents leave..ray and lance come 15 minutes later and we get 2 hang out. We think that we have an hour and a half though but her parents come home like 40 min later and ray and lance have to run out the back door. Aidas parents have no clue that they were there. And we get away with it. wooo. Then Aidas dad drives me home at 12:40. And i have 2 wake my dad up 2 answer the door, but luckily i didnt get in any trouble. =D. It was great.

i am the luckiest person in the world 2 have a sister a year younger than me.

Fri, 07 Feb 2003 03:06:38 GMT

awesome day. Got 2 miss school. Got the car alll day. Drove around. Hung out w/
Anna. Went 2 the greatest resteraunt. Then 2 the doctors (even tho i'm not sick). Got ice cream.
Went home. Watched videos w/ Anna. Then slept. Now writing in my journal.

update for the past week:
Wed: my birthday. Got my license around 9. Then my driving school dropped me off at home. My mom told me not 2 go 2 school, so me and anna drove 2 the mall. Anna bought me a cool leather wallet. Now i have something 2 put my license in. Then drove around some more. Then my grandparents came over. Then jamie called me and said her jess and kristin were gonna come over. Jamie didnt come till much later, so i was showing Jess a video of Ray. And feeling kind of sad because i didnt get 2 see him all day. After Jamie and Jess left i called Ray back. Turns out he was in my development the whole time! he's sooo sweet. He pulled infont of my house and i ran out in my pajamas and all and had 2 hold back from jumping on him. Then we drove around my development and i got 2 be w/ him for around an hour. I was really happy.

Thursday: got to sleep in. Then drove me and my mom tanning. Then dropped her off at home and drove 2 school. Nothing special in school. English we didnt have class. Then i had study. Then we got 2 leave. I drove aida jennie and of course anna home. But before than we met up w/ Ray Lance and Will at boston market.

Friday: Jennie planned a whole thing for my birthday. Her aida and anna kidnapped me from school. We went and get a $100 worth of junkfood. 4 videos.And then went back 2 her house where Lance and ray were waiting for us. She gave me her present. And we watched the videos and pigged out. Then ray and lance left, and me,aida+anna slept over. It was fun.

Sat: Ray helped me babysit.

Sun: hung out w/ ray. Went to Aida's for a bit. Watched "life or something like it." She had some people over. Then after the movie, me and ray left. We hung out in his car. I got 2 be w/ him longer than usual. It was great. The highlight of my day. The highlight of all my days.
Then i went to sleep with the biggest smile on my face.

o and today is mine and ray's 3 month anniversary.. he's officially my second longest relationship..woo

Mon, 27 Jan 2003 17:34:06 GMT

2 more days till i get my license.

Mon, 27 Jan 2003 01:25:21 GMT

This weekend sucked asss. Friday i had 2 babysit. Saturday people were coming in all day to look at my house. Ray had to wait 3 hours so i cud hang out w/ him. Then we met up with tory and aida at the movies. Then went to the mall where we met up with jessica, Nati, Lotta,Matt H., Matt j., Will, Sharon, Sara, and Lance. We walked around the mall aimlesly, and then waited a fuckin hour to eat at ruby tuesdays. It sucked. I barely got 2 talk 2 ray and i didnt get any time alone with him. But anyway, enough of that. I'll update for last weekend, which was Martin Luther King weekend.

Friday: Ahhh can't remember but i kno i hung out w/ ray.

Saturday: also cant remember but i hung out w/ ray. i'll write what i did later, when i remember. I do remember what i did the next day. =/.

Sunday: Mike's "party" or just people coming over 2 hang out. Me and Ray were off by ourselve while they were all smoking up and drinking and doing whatever gay stuff they were doing. Matt kept bothering us towards the end and wudnt stop talking to Ray. He threatened ray that he wud kill him if he ever hurt me..which i thought was funny but nice. O also, i thought this was weird...This guy that works for mike's dad that was 20 came over with his girlfriend and supplied beer. Idk but i thought that was really weird..Anyway tho...12:40 came around realllly soon and Aida's dad came to pick us up. I was kinda upset becuase i wanted 2 stay with Ray longer, but couldn't do aynthing about it so i just went home and went to sleep. Then the next morning i wake up and look at my phone which has 6 unread text messages..all from ray. And while i'm reading through them i'm about to kick myself in the face because Ray was infront of my house two times. Two times in which i missed. The first was around 1, he went to dunkin donuts and then text messaged me that if i wanted donuts he'd be outside my house. He waited for 10 min butt i'm fucking SLEEPing and had NO idea. otherwise i wuda been out there in a second becuase i wanted 2 see him so bad...then the 2nd time, i left my cds in his car so he thought it wud be a good excuse 2 see me, and then while he'd be returning my cds we cud go out for breakfast. And AGAIN i'm fucking SLEEpinG and missss it. ERrrr. So he jsut left the cds in my mail box and went home. i didnt get to see him that whole day. It sucked.
Ok well i g2g. Hope raiders win tonight so rAy can win his bet.

Fri, 24 Jan 2003 21:46:25 GMT

well hello live journal. Haven't updated in what seems forever. Been pretty busy..soo i'll update for the last 2weeks now...
last weekend: hung out with ray. ofcourse. Friday i went over his house. Hung out there. Then went to see his dad's business's building. His dad met us there and we got to go inside. It was REALLY neat. I got to see the machines that make those hollogram type prints. And all these neat things his dads company makes. I also got to see ray's last name in huge letters on the side of the building. It was really cool....then after that we went to dinner and then the movies. And ray dropped me off at home around 12,and prob had 2 rush home because of the dumb restricted license rule. But it was a reallly nice night.
Saturday: went to birch hill with ray. Met up with David Allen, Matt held, Vince, Ricky, Becca (yuck), some girl debbie, and these 2 guys that graduated. Early november, the dissenters, all rights reserved, and some other bands were playing. During Early November, i saw my x jon carter, which was really weird, but cool seeing him again. Then we went to the other room 2 see All rights reserved, who were realllllly goooood. They definently practice a lot. After that we went back 2 the first room 2 see the dissenters, and then told ricky that we; me, ray, matt, vince, dave, and one of the college guys, were going 2 a diner 2 eat and 2 go tell becca and w/e to come..but i guess ricky was stoned or seomthing because he forgot we left. So we were all sitting outside for like an houurr waiting for them, when finallly we're about to pull to the front and i'm planning 2 sneak in and get them, when there they are. walking towards us. Soo ricky and one of the kids suggest instead of the diner we go to ihop since its right across the street, and they dont know how 2 get to the diner...anyway..we all get 2 ihop...and guesss whos not there-the stoners that SUGGESTED it in the first place. Apparantly they had gotten lost EVEN THOUGH IT WAS RIGHT ACROSS THE FUCKING STREET. and 20 min later they finally get there and we get to eat...then dave, matt,and ray convince ricky into drinking a cup of syrup by telling him $5 was a lot of money..and blah blah...then we leave. drop dave back off at birch, and go 2 my development. First me and ray wanted 2 go 2 this park in my development but it was cold and ray had no blankets in his car. So i call up aida and ask her for blankets and she's like "WhatT??". and was all confused. but anyway, she was at jess's house so she's cudnt give us them even if she had them..soo instead we just went to this street in my development that leads into a forrest where there's no houses. Me and ray get in his back seat since the front isnt too comfortable and we're tired. I finally get my alone time with him that night, and we just cuddle and listen 2 music and i can't stop thinking when was the last time, or any time i ever felt so strongly about someone. As corny as that sounds...

wwelll i have to go! ah. i will update later.

Sat, 07 Dec 2002 22:41:55 GMT

so last night was pretty fun..i got to see jess, jamie, kristin, and evan who i haven't seen in the longgesttt time..i just wish they called me b4 they reached my house cause i was in my big sweatshirt and looked like a man, but o well. lol...o ANd OMGGg..i'm sorry if i sound like a loser, but i am NEVER driving in a car w/ Ryan aGain. He's a physcooo and the worst driver possilbe..i came home soo nautious, i was gonna diiie..ughh..he's so retarded..i mean that was REALLy nice of him to drive us all home, but its like he thinks he's soo cool driving on the left side of the road and going over the curbs and swurves evverrryy second..i wanted 2 kill him...maybe i was just really tired and had a headache..butt i thought it was really annoying...wow i sound like such a grandma..o welll..

Fri, 06 Dec 2002 17:12:19 GMT

O and Today is a
SNOW DAY
NO school =D
also today iss
mine and ray's 1 month=)

my day in the city

Thu, 05 Dec 2002 19:47:17 GMT

OMG yesterday was AMAZING....i dont even know where to start..or how to make this entry short..but i'll tryy..
ok so the day started out alright..kind of bad..i woke up late, had to throw all my stuff (pjs, toothbrush, change of clothes, pillow..etc.) in a bag to bring to jennies house since we were sleeping over. Then i had not even 15 minutes to get ready, and jennie wanted us to wear soemthing a little nicer than what we usually wore, buttt couldn't find that, so i just threw on some clothes that i haven't worn to school yet and did my make up on the buss...thenn we get to school and the day goes by sooo slowwwwwww...1rst period was hell..mr kelly kept yelling at me and aida for checking our mail or going on lj...then 2nd period came and that was just as badd..i left my book at home and Ms. ferrari wouldn't shut up about it..UGh..finally that period ended and it started 2 get funn...math was gooood since he let me hand in the hw late and said he'd give me full credit anyway..then history felt like it was 4 hourrrssss,but when it finally ended i got to see aida and jennie since they were in the classroom next to mine and we walked 2 lunch where we got really excited cause there was only 2 periods left.... AFter lunch i had study where i thought i lost my camera so me and ray were looking for it, and the whole time it was in the locker room, even though i could've sworn that i had it with me..o well..we got to miss the begining of physics to look for it, and then wen we got back to physics i had 15 more min, which felt like an hourrr..ooo and i got my take home quiz back which .i got a 104 on!!!! That totally made my day. And then FINALLLLLLLY jennie comes to get me and we hurry to aida's class to get her and then go 2 anna's and get her and at that point i'm trying so hard not 2 be jumping up and down and screaming because i'm so excitedddd...
...then we get into jennie's dads car and quickly go pick up jennie's JAPPY friend amy..who is nice but i didnt like..and neither did aida. She was REally stuck up and snobbbyyyy, but o well, it was for only half the time...in the end she was betterr...anyway ...then we get back to jennie's house, throw our stuff in the basement (where we'll be sleeping) and go upstairs to wait for Jennie's 20 year old friend who her dad let be our "chaperone"...and when jennie said we had a chaperone, i was expecting some loser 20 year old who had nothing better to do then watch a bunch of kids...and woww was i wronggg..i turn around and see this girl that looks like she's 18, she has blonde hair, is really tan, leather jacket, tight pants..pretty jappy looking and nottt a loser at all..more like someone that goes clubbing and partying all the time..which is exactly her...she has a fake id and gets alcohol and is definentlyyyyy not someone my parents would pick 2 be our chaperone, but luckily jennie's dad is awesome and let her...soo then we all talk, and jennie's dad goes over the rules which are short and obvious..then gives our "chaperone" (her names dannielle) $500 to pay for our dinner..and any left over money would be for anything else we want to buyy...which was AWESOME...annd finalllly our white stretch limo comes, and our driver is SO fuckin cooollll..wow...so we get in.. and anna + aida have never been in a limo before so they're bugging out, and pressing all the buttons, and stuff. lol. and then we're on our way..oo annd i took some pics in the limo that i'll post up here later..when bryan helps me out.
Ok so then we get to the city, and there's a lott of traffic because everyones trying 2 go see the tree iin rockefeller since it's being lit that day..but we make it through alright..I then call up some of my friends there that we could meet up with...and then we go into planet hollywood where we order like everyythihnnnggg on the menu...i couldn't even finish my dinner..and then the dessert came, and i got a triple hot fudge caramel brownie..which was o soooo goodd..but i could barelllly eat...oo and the waiters sang happy birthday to me and anna cause jennie and amy told them it was our b-days even tho it wasn't. it was fun. immature but fun...umm then we walked around..we didnt have time 2 go 2 the village =( to get our belly buttons pierced but we'll do it next time... (jennie's doing this again for her birthday)..but anywayyy..finally it was 8 oclock and we walked a block to the theater since there was no point in having the limo drive us there...then we get there and its sooo crowded..and everywhere i look there r signs that say aida..and eveyone kept saying "aida" since its the play ofcourse..but it was so funny, cause aida (not the 1 in the play..my friend aida that was there)..kept going what? lol...and then we finally get into the theater and find our seats which are 3rd row center...we were practically screamminggg, because we thought we were on the side, since thats what jenny said..and not only were we in the center but we were third row. it was amazingg..but even more amazing was the play. OMFG, When my friend Ali, that's seen 30 something broadway plays, said that "Aida" was by far the best she's seen.. i did not believe her..but after seeing it..WOW she was COMpletELY right..I haven't seen as many plays as her, but out of all the ones i've seen, this was definently by far the BESt. Everyone should go out and see itt..its amaazing.. I can't wait to see it again and again and again. I think all of us cried during it..and jennie i know cried 4 times lol..we are SUCH LOSERSSSSS!!! and if you dont think so yettt..you will because after the play was done..we went to the side of the building to the stage door and waited 30 min in the freezzinngg collld for the acters to come out so we can get their autograpghs...and OMG Adam Pascal whos one of the main characters, is SOooo fuckin hottttt..ahhhhh...i got his autograph and got to talk to him..it was soo cooll..and then after seeing him and some of the other acters i was too cold to wait anymore and so was dannielle so we went back into the limo while aida anna and jennie waited another 20 min for autographss cause tehy're crazyyy...but annywayyy we got home at around 1am..and didnt stay up for long cause we were exxauussttedddd and i couldn't imagine how i'd wake up for school the next day..even if we did get to sleep till 11..but LuckiLY IT SNOWWEDDDD AND SCHOOL WAS CANCELEDD!!!!! THANK GODDD, because i did not do ANNNYY of my homework..and i had an essay due 2day, a physics test, pre calc hw, french quiz, physics lab..etc..I can't believe what good luck we had. wow..and i still can't believe that Jennies dad payed forEVErythIng!! the tickets were a 100 each..and dinner was $200. and then we each got $30 posters signed by all the acters and the company and $15 books each...and plus the souvenirs and all..wowww..he must be rich becasue that wasn't even her birthday present..it was her HANnukah present...it was nuts...ooo and jennie..O-M-G..just took one of the $100 bills and donated it to the aids fundraiser..i was like ARE U CRAZYYY..what if the guy keeps it?!! but he prob wont..but stillll..i CANt believe she did thatt. wow. she could've just kept it. o well it was very nice of her..crazy..but nice..and ahhh i keep writing!! i gotta stoppp this is toooo longgg annnd borrinnnggg..i'm gonna go watch analyze this because jennie let me borrow it and i haven't watched it yet..and aidas hopefully gonna come over and watch it also, and then we're gonna play in the snow. lol. Oooo and i'll post the pics up later. Ok bbbyee..hope everyones having fun on their snooww dayyyy.=)

Sat, 30 Nov 2002 20:21:00 GMT

So itS HAnnUkah..and i didnt know till last night, when steve gave me his present.. i was like uhh what is this for??? and he's like HANNUKaH u idiot. Oooppss..well THANK You for the dvd player steve, and i haven't gotten anything for you yet...but i will..

Tue, 26 Nov 2002 01:48:14 GMT

things i've always wanted 2 do but never got around 2 doing them:

learn to play violin
snow board
parasail
crowd surf
get my belly button pierced already!
scuba dive
hangglide
go to space (prob never will)
get a facial
meet billie joe
go on a teen tour
take a road trip
climb a mountain
go horse back riding (more than a halfff hourr)

annnnd some more i dont have time 2 list cuase i gotta gooo...